I love you and I miss you....

~~ Dear Grandpa ...
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Dear grandpa
by Doina aka The Outlaws' Song

Dear grandpa,

One day I went looking for you,

But everything around me

Seemed to keep your secret

Please, grandpa, share it with me and tell me:

Are you a cloud…,…or a leaf…,…or a mountain?

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Dear grandpa,

One night I left my home to look for you,

But the dark outside rendered my way difficult.

And the trees' shade hid you so well that I couldn't find you

So, dear loved grandpa, please tell me:

Are you a wave…,…or a root…,…or a star?

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Dear grandpa,

One summer I left my friends to look for you

But the burning sun blinded my eyes

It dried my skin and stifled me with its heat.

So, grandpa, I beg you please tell me this:

Are you a bug…,…or a flower…,… or a fly?

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Dear grandpa,

One winter I left my family to look for you,

But the wind pushed me aside my way

And the coolness broke me to pieces

So, grandpa, have mercy and tell me:

Are you a rain drop…,… or a snow flake…,… or a thunder?

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Dear grandpa,

When there was no place left to search,

I thought to look for you among the animals

But I didn't know where to look firstly:

In the boundless heights of the sky,

In the dangerous caches of the jungle,

Or in the mysterious depths of the sea.

So, I'd like you so much to tell me:

Are you an eagle… … or a tiger… … or a shark?

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Dear grandpa,

One spring night found me thinking of you

And lost In memories, staring to the moon

I wondered:

Grandpa of my heart

Are you a timid ray… …or a tiny shadow… …or a tired ghost?

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Dear grandpa,

Surprisingly, after many restless nights, I fell asleep

And when the old Sandman sent me to the land of dreams

I asked you more ardently than ever

Dear loved grandpa

Are you the echo of my voice… …or the sadness in my cries… …or the fear in my eyes?

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But, dear grandpa,

When I woke up I realized that you're the angel on my shoulder

For you're my dearest memory

And no matter what else you may be

You will always be beside me.

There's no need to go that far looking for you

Because you are in here, deep down inside my heart.

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~~ "If you want to pick a fruit you have to ask the tree to give it to you"
~~"Life will steal many dear things from you but...."
~~"Keep in touch"
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~~ "Te iubesc" means "I love you" in Romanian.

Not the perfect teddy bear.....

~ I'd like to share with you two things for today:
~~ A drawing ~~

and ~~ A childish thought...~~
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I Want

by Doina aka The Outlaws’ Song

I want to paint the sky in red

I wanna take away the clouds

In snowdrops to turn the dread

Instead of stars to put a smile.

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I want to fill the world with joy

To turn the hate into our bliss

Putting all demons in a toy

To turn the nightmares in a kiss.

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I want to turn the tears in diamonds

And all the fears in many lions

I wanna make the laughter be a wont

And tears of joy be shed with billions

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I’d turn the sinners in believers

I’d turn all people in magicians

Burdens in wings - I’d twist’em so

And color black I’d make a rainbow.

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I want to turn the wounds in scars

So they remind us we were wrong

Eventually I’d make them stars

The wrong path to be reminded from above.

© The Outlaws’ Song 2008

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~ Wish you all a marvelous weekend and a fruitful month.

~ Drawing by Me, a little modified on photobucket.com :)

Black Swan....

~~ This post is dedicated to my best friend, Andra aka Iv Sadovsky! (click to visit her blog)
~~ We went to the park today and watched the swans! What beautiful and most graceful birds! And so devoted!
~~ I love black swans..Quiet and graceful! Beautiful like a canvas painted by God! And devoted for life to one pair..one half!
~~ Many times I used their name as a nickname for me. Maybe you can make the connection between them and my yesterday post!
~~ The poem is written in Romanian but I promise to post it again as soon as I finish translating it!

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Pluteste...
by Doina aka The Outlaws' Song

Pluteste pe apa ca un fulg patat

Pe apa lacului involburat

Departe...prea departe in singuratate

Pluteste pe firul zilelor numarate
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E frumoasa si o stie prea bine

Desi sta cu capul plecat in Apus

Isi etaleaza cu eleganta liniile fine

Iar in ochi ii arde un foc nespus

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E o lebada neagra...singura pe lacul uitat

Desi nu mai spera niciodata n-a-ncetat

Sa-si caute pe lumea asta perechea sa

La fel de frumoasa si de neagra ca ea

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O lebada neagra...odata...candva...

© 2009 The Outlaws' Song

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~~ Photo Credit -- Iv Sadovsky (photo gallery) - Thank you for being such a wonderful friend!

Twins...

~Sometimes I experience this feeling of inner loneliness. I reached the age when I am searching for my other half...but I don't feel pressed by any kind of exterior factors to rush in my search. I'm only 20 and I know I still have plenty of time to find that missing piece of me but this feeling of loneliness is killing me sometimes.
~My sign are Castor and Pollux (The Twins)- the eternal proof of true love and brotherhood.
Though twins, Castor and Pollux weren't born from the same seed - Pollux was the son of Zeus, hence he was immortal, while Castor was born from the seed of a mortal man. Their love was so intense and the bond between them was so strong that Pollux decided to share his immortality with his twin, though that meant that they'd be forever separated. 6 months up with the Gods and 6 months down with the mortals - this is how the twins exchanged places and lived until they were both killed.
The feeling on longing and incompleteness lingered in their hearts till the end of their days, when they were transformed into stars and meant to be together forever.
~ This is just an old Greek legend...but who knows?! Maybe there is a bit of truth in it. What I know is that this feeling of loneliness and incompleteness comes back to me from time to time with no reason.
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~~ Drawing by Me, manipulated on photobucket.com - please excuse the paper..I made it on one of my school notebooks :D

Easter

~~ I guess Easter is about forgiving and letting the Divine Light inside your heart.
I also guess Easter is about believing more and questioning less.
I am not a religious person..i don't go to church very often but when I do go I make sure I am the only one inside. I like listening to that silence...the silence you can hear only inside of a church...a divine silence that echoes between the cold walls.
In that silence I hear my thoughts..I hear the real me...the ME that wears no masks, the ME behind the appearances...the ME released from the rules of society...just ME.
In that silence I meet myself, I hear myself, I become aware of how I feel and of what I want, I listen to myself and I can see myself.
~~I am not a religious person as in a person who believes in the words of the Bible.
But i am religious is my very own way. I know I carry God's signature on my soul and I can feel Him dwelling inside of me. I know for sure that He hears me and I also know that when the time is right He answers back.
My God is a stronger version of me...He is my enlightenment and my hope...the helping hand that reaches out for me when I am in need...
~~ I've never taken the time to put my beliefs in order and this post is like a talk to myself...
I will come back to this subject later on. I still have to ponder.
~~ Anyway...the point for today was to write about Easter because this is what I celebrate tonight.
As i was cleaning up the house and helping my mom to cook today I realized that many of the Holidays we celebrate have become only a reason to eat...to eat special food that we cook once or twice a year. These Holy Days have lost so much of their spiritual meaning...
I look at the people around me and I hear them worrying about how to split their time between cooking and cleaning on time.
But what about a prayer?! When was the last time they have said one?
-Does anybody remember why we celebrate Easter?!
-Hmm, we celebrate it because someone died?!
-Yeah-- but Who died? And Why? For Whom?
-Well...that's not so important. After all He did returned from the dead, right?!

~~ Happy Easter, everyone! And please -- don't forget to remember who died, why and for whom! It's important!!!
~~Many blessings to all of you!


~~ Can you hear God in her voice? I can.
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~~ Photo Credit : *shimoda7

I am the Empress. You?

~~ Just a short and silly post for today:):)
~~On another note:
~~ 1.I want to THANK all my new followers for choosing my blog.
~~ 2.I wish everyone a nice, creative and fruitful week!!!
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You are The Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

~~The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents,
beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home
decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

~~The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

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Sleepless Night

4th of April, 2009
Cleveland .........Ohio
Rock and Roll Hall of Fame
METALLICA


~~I have spent the night watching the induction ceremony online. The show began at 3am, my time, and the clock was pointing 7 am when Metallica finally went on stage.
It was a long waiting but it was worth it.
~~Metallica is the band i grew up with. I was only 11 when I listened to one of their songs for the first time...and the song was called One.
~~Metallica was there for me - for good and for bad, singing about feelings i have felt too, about situations I have been through too, making me aware that i wasn't alone.
~~These powerful alchemists, these masterful wizards of noise and sound, these skilled masters of words and meanings wrapped up in harmonies and chords..these are the men I call my HEROES and to whom I send my deepest respect, gratitude and love.
\m/James Hetfield\m/
\m/Lars Ulrich\m/
\m/Kirk Hammett\m/
\m/Jason Newsted\m/
\m/Rob Trujillo\m/
May God bless you all with health and happiness until the end of time..And you,\m/Cliff Burton\m/, may your soul rest in peace forever!
~~ Having the opportunity to see and hear Jason Newsted playing again with the other 4 cats was a blessing...I wish he'd never leave the band again!!!!

~~After 26 years of career Metallica got Inducted in the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame!
A loud "Hell Yeah"!!!!!!!!!!!!!






~~ Thank you, Metallica!